Actually today should not be blogging because it is another working day, but something happen at later part of the day. Therefore, I decided to blog it down to clear my stress.
Working life is already dull and bored, yet people still create trouble for me to make my life even worst. Guess what? Its about her and her family again. (I think they really have nothing better to do. The whole family keep giving me trouble.) Last 2 weeks before her exam everything was fine, till yesterday, trouble come again. In the afternoon, when I was talking to her nicely, she suddenly go crazy shouting at me, even though I do not know what have I done. She keep asking whether I still love her but I never want to reply. Tell her the truth, I get into trouble. Tell her a lie, I find I let myself down. (Later say I give her false hope again. So can anyone teach me what to do?) In additional, she keep insisting that I should show her at least abit of my effort and love for her. How to show when I am not even interested to continue or can say that I am force to continue. Sometimes, I think she is really brainless or maybe do not know how to think. You want the love, you have to prove and earn it. You want to know the result then do things, isn't it taking short cut? If everyone who wants to do something already know the answer before they do, I think there will not be poor people around. All go be fortune teller better. No love how to show, how to give?! Brainless!!! (Maybe she is trying to act an opera for her mum to watch.) Hence, the way she throw her temper and attitude, I know her mother will call me anytime. True enough, her monther call in the evening to meet me after my work at my working place Macdonald. Therefore, can anyone tells me what her mother say?
Like mother like daughter, both say the same thing, must show love. (What the hell to show when I do not even have it now?!) Her mother said that her daughter will go to Mental Hospital the next two days if I do not continue because she is unable to take it or may even be suffering from depression. Besides that, she also keep saying that I lie to her 4 times saying that I wanted to continue. (Bloody idiot! Force me to continue then say that I bluff her 4 times. Ask her to try telling me that she will not look for my parents, then see will I straight tell her on her face anot. Brainless!) Same rubbish things she told me again. I just do not even bother to look at her because it gives me the irk feeling of her. (Damn irritating!) Only her father was saying take things slowly. Here I am trying to take things slowly and help her, then there she is keep having negative thoughts, so tell me, what can I do? They also said that I must help their daughter by showing love and putting effort, but the rational is that what to show when I do not even have it. If I am going to help her daughter to be happy, then who will help me with my suffering?! SELFISH! (All these people are inconsiderate freaks!)
Anyway, let me just bear with it since I do not want to bring my parents into picture. However, if they bring my parents in, I will make sure they do not gain anything from it! They will not like it when I am angry.
I have really regretted and I will learn from my mistakes. I promise~
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